Motivation

I really need to get motivated to get back to working out. Almost a week has passed since the biopsy (should hear from them tomorrow) and so I know I am ok to work out again. But the problem is, I don't WANT too.

It doesn't seem FAIR. I don't know hardly anyone who works out - and everyone seems to be a normal, healthy weight. I mean- I see some pudges here and there, but no one is severely overweight. I'm not SEVERELY over either, but I am OVER... and I don't know why. I don't know why everyone else is pretty normal and I'm not. The doctor has already told me, due to the thyroid issue, I'm not normal and I never will be. Lovely. That's the best news- I feel like it's Christmas. (GROWL)

We leave for Hawaii in six weeks and I want to be at LEAST 20 pounds down. I see on the Biggest Loser they lose that in a week- but I think they work out 6 hours a day too. I don't think Conrad is going to be ok with me quitting my job and becoming GI Jane. I'm fairly certain he would take me as I am now and use that income, rather than have me broke, but able to do a push up with one hand.

I am leaning, these days, to wanting to be broke with a one-handed push up.

Karyn (Huge in Houston)