Retraction

Ok ... so things are NOT getting better. They got worse since my last post. I really feel like I'm under attack. I'm not sure what I did to deserve it or if it's just the Devil working against me or not. I wish I could fake it- both on here (this blog) and at work, but I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve and right now, I feel like it's broken into a million pieces. There's not even enough left to SHOW on my sleeve.

I am very confused, very hurt ... very unsure of what I need or want to do. I am taking a half day vacation tomorrow to try to breathe and figure it out ...

I'm very friendly and helpful by nature and you can see it's bitten me in the butt ... I find myself very unfriendly right now ... very quiet and non-social ... very unhappy. This isn't me at all.

I'm not sure why I'm allowing other people to control me or kill who I am. I just don't feel, right now, like killing them with kindness ...

Kah