Confused

Wow, I'm confused. I'm confused about the state of our country and what I'm supposed to do about it.

They tell us to stimulate the economy and things will get better. They are considering ANOTHER stimulus package where we'll all get another $300 and the country will go another trillion dollars into debt. They do this with the HOPE that we all run out to Wal-Mart and buy romance novels, Fritos, beer and some of those inflatable Santa snowglobes you see in people's yards. If it were me, it would go RIGHT into my savings account ..Oh and guess what- that $700 bail out? 1/3 has been spent and um, they're not really sure where it all went ... WOW. .

and now today, it's Friday and the weekend looms out in front of me. I have some options: I need those long pants I've been jarring about, I need a few things from the grocery store to make some yummy winter-time treats I've been seeing in magazines .... I liked this shirt I saw in a catalog the other day- and I need to make my monthly appointment at massage envy ... BUT in my heart - I know my capris will make me just warm enough. No need for long pants this year OR for that awesome shirt I saw in the catalog. We have plenty of food at home and truth be told, I have the makings for pumpkin pie RIGHT in my panrty, RIGHT now- and I could cancel the Massage Envy membership.

Things are SLOW at work. Never seen them so slow. I am on my special project right now - so I'm busy ... but I can look at reports and things and SEE that things are slow. What are they going to do? I don't know. We've been told not to panic. I'm not. But I can't help but wondering if the worst happens, will I be glad I bought that shirt for $29.99 or will I be thinking about the two weeks worth of sandwich makings that could have gotten us? When I get a bonus or my check is a little bigger- I stuff it in my savings account.

So ......... do I help the economy by spending like I always do - or do I prepare for a long, hard, uncertain winter by canceling all the fun stuff, burying my head in a library book and saving money? I really don't know. I'm worried.

I'm confused.

Kah