Wednesday, December 17, 2008


I'm not doing too good. Every time I close my eyes I see his truck coming at me and I feel all over again the impact. Every part of my body hurts - being sore is an understatement. The only thing that wasn't hurt is my face - everything else is killing me.

I am so upset and so depressed and I feel so stupid. I have no idea yet who's fault the wreck was or how much this is going to cost me. I called today and upped my liability because apparently I only carried what is necessary in Texas ... and um, he had a Land Rover. So if his car it totalled and it's my fault- I have no idea what I'm going to do. I am hoping hoping that's it not and it just needs a lot of work ... my truck, I have a feeling is a goner. The entire front is smashed in - and with the age and milage, they may just total it out. What a pain to have to find a new car.

Oh and speaking of a new car, getting into the rental and driving to work is almost more than I can stand. I just sat in the bedroom sobbing this evening because it took everything I had to get back into a car this morning ... I honestly think I am going to have an anxiety attack when I even see it. I drove white knuckled into work and breathing heavy all the way home. Getting up tomorrow and leaving is almost more than I can think about.

I have some serious post traumatic stress ...



Jess said...

Oh man, I missed the original post about this but I am so sorry! I think these feelings are normal and it was smart to up your liability, just in case. I'm sure it will all work out. Try not to think about all that logistical crap and just focus on resting and relaxing and trying to feel better physically. Can Conrad help out with the details and stuff so you don't have to worry about it? That's what husbands are for, right?

And you're doing well, taking it one day at a time. Just one drive at a time. Try not to think about the next one... you'll just stress yourself out.

Feel better!

DeeDee said...

I am thinking about you Karyn!!!

How long until you find out whose fault it was? I guess the police weren't called?