Aftershock

I'm not doing too good. Every time I close my eyes I see his truck coming at me and I feel all over again the impact. Every part of my body hurts - being sore is an understatement. The only thing that wasn't hurt is my face - everything else is killing me.

I am so upset and so depressed and I feel so stupid. I have no idea yet who's fault the wreck was or how much this is going to cost me. I called today and upped my liability because apparently I only carried what is necessary in Texas ... and um, he had a Land Rover. So if his car it totalled and it's my fault- I have no idea what I'm going to do. I am hoping hoping that's it not and it just needs a lot of work ... my truck, I have a feeling is a goner. The entire front is smashed in - and with the age and milage, they may just total it out. What a pain to have to find a new car.

Oh and speaking of a new car, getting into the rental and driving to work is almost more than I can stand. I just sat in the bedroom sobbing this evening because it took everything I had to get back into a car this morning ... I honestly think I am going to have an anxiety attack when I even see it. I drove white knuckled into work and breathing heavy all the way home. Getting up tomorrow and leaving is almost more than I can think about.

I have some serious post traumatic stress ...

Kah