Quick Fix

Well, in case you didn't know, I am somewhat of a genius. More frugal fun from Karyn!

Whilst purchasing all manner of needed things yesterday I found myself in the makeup aisle. There are a few things I will spend money on (moisturizer, mascara, lipstick) but blush is not one of them. I picked out a new color and tossed it in the cart.

My powerful throw must be something like one of the Texas Rangers pitchers. When I tossed it in, it must have broken the blush. When I opened it this morning to use it, it was in pieces. Well, no matter - I can use my old blush and still look JUST as fabulous. Breathtaking, really.

But anyway, I fixed it. Wanna know how?

You just open up the offending product- blush, powder, eyeshadow and you see it has been broken into pieces. Get some rubbing alcohol and pour a little into the blush or whatever .... enough to be able to rub into the cracks ....what you want is to rub the stuff enough that the cracks go away .... it's sort of pasty. Anyway, then leave it open and go on to work or where you need to go - when you get home, the alcohol will have evaporated and your precious item will be back to it's original state.

YOU ARE WELCOME.

Kah

Better

Feeling somewhat better today.

I cooked dinner, and Kelley dropped off some cookie dough I ordered - how can you be sad with double
brownie chocolate cookies?

It's maybe not so bad to be me.

Kah

Me

You know, I've had people tell me how it is to be ME my whole life ... and it hasn't happened lately but I FEEL it.

I've had people tell me I am too extreme. I either LOVE something or HATE something. There is no gray area ... and then I caught myself actually thinking about something before I talked, because of someone else's judgement.

I had someone tell me once that I used too many words that sounded like SOUNDS ... like POP, ZOOM, BOOM ... he actually told me that it was annoying. I would just be telling him something like "That balloon exploded and went POP" ... or "I saw a car accident this morning and those two cars hit with a BOOM." ... yes, well I guess that was wrong. It was an annoying way to talk. *I* was annoying.

Now I feel like it's happening again ... I am being PERCIEVED as a certain way ... like I'm selffish and self absorbed ... and the person who is putting this on me IS me ... I am trying to explain to people how I feel about certain things and whenever I get their reaction, I feel like it's more of a "Oh ... here we go, she's being Karyn again" ...

and I've always wondered why that is such a bad thing.

Well I don't know, but today I have cried and cried because I didn't think it was a bad thing. Not at all, but today, I don't know, maybe so. Maybe I am bad. Maybe I am selffish. Maybe I am judgemental. Maybe I am absolutely 100% all of those things.

Kah

World Series

Finally, a decent Dallas team.

Good job, Rangers! I spent many a night, in my younger days, sitting in that stadium... and Conrad worked there during high school. Congrats!

Kah

Productive

I took today and Monday off.  Mental health days!

Today was productive. I washed ALL the clothes which will surprise and please Conrad. He does the laundry almost every weekend - so the fact he doesn't have to will make him happy. I EVEN went into the trunk of my car and dug out my winter coat to clean. Last winter I had a fight with a blueberry smoothie one morning and LOST. Thankfully my coat is black - but I had blueberry dripping from my nose ... it was EVERYWHERE. So I threw the coat in the trunk and there it has STAYED. Today I washed it - and I've got my super cute scarves out - waiting for our two weeks of Houston winter. I sprayed the entire thing down with Spray N' Wash and it tooks like everything came out. I don't like to dry clothes- it's terrible for your clothes - so it's hanging up to dry.... you guys know something bad has to be wrong with my clothes to get me to throw them away... I even bought some navy RIT dye the other day because I have some dingy white pants I'd like to dye. Nothing wrong with them except they are looking a little yellow. Soon I'll have new navy pants. I am totally living in the wrong century.

We are giving away our dining room table this weekend and getting another one, so I cleaned off all the crap on it this morning too ... so it will be ready for Conrad to take apart tonight. Hopefully I'll have some before and after pics soon.

By the time Monday rolls around, it will just be a movie and library book day.
H.E.A.V.E.N.

Kah

Soooory for my absence

Hey y'all  ...sorry for my unscheduled absence.

Things have been WILD and CRAZY and after every single day of just living, I found it hard to just open the computer and randomly blab about a cute Christmas wrapping paper or baking bread. I have been going through some seriously life altering stuff ... well not ME, but my family  ... and it has just been emotionally draining. When I had my condo in Dallas, my neighbor Toni used to check in on me - and she knew if after work, the house was dark, I had just come in and gone straight to bed. Many a day I got a phone call to GET UP ... and well, that is really how I deal with things. There is nothing more comforting to me than a mattress, a pillow and a dark room. Now that I'm married up - I can't do that so easily.

My sister has left her husband and since a divorce is imminent (per that sisters phone call yesterday) I guess I can talk about it now. I know she feels free and at peace ... but being at the recieving end of such news, I can only tell her and you that when you lose a family member, the world sort of tilts off its axis. I didn't spend every weekend with BIL or anything, but I did like him very much and I thought we all got along great. I feel a great sadness for my sister and family and it feels like nothing will ever be the same again. I never, ever wanted this for her. I wanted it to last forever.

My brother - I can't talk about too much since this is still a pending issue. But let's just say I am so worried about him I don't sleep. He is lost- either by laziness or some sort of chemical imbalance and I don't know  which. He is currently with my FL parents ... and soon enough I shall see him for myself. The situation is frustrating and scary. I like to solve things with tough words and the the threat of deadly force - but I don't know if even that will budge him this time. Both of my brothers are bigger than me and stronger than me now, but even if I am standing there, head tilted back to look at them, I can still holler and yell and threaten serious butt kicking and they seem to be pretty intimidated by it. I'm kicking around a quick trip to FL to straighten things out - I don't think there has been NEAR enough yelling.

Blanca had a bump on her hind leg for a few months. I took her in and had it removed and it came back as cancer. They said all they needed to do was remove it, no further treatment necessary. This does NOT make sense to me ... and so since she is my precious baby, I am taking her to another vet for a second opinion. Now I find myself frantic with worry and doing a nightly rub down/lump check. That's no way to live for either of us. I'll feel better once the 10/30 appointment has come and gone. As for her though, she's fine- she's never acted different and her little surgery area has healed beautifully. She was the model patient. Such a brave girl. Such a scared mommy.

Anyway, that's just a taste of what's going on. I'm the co-chair of our United Way committee this year and it's been hard. Kelley is the chair and has taken 90% of the brunt of things ... but it's been hard to watch. It's hard to watch your ideas shot down ... hard to fight for your coworkers, hard to voice to HR what all the other employees want, hard to prove what was done in years past. Kelley has been running around for two weeks buying prizes and raffle stuff ... making sure we have all the posters and pledge cards, etc - our kick off is tomorrow and this will almost be over. It is always an honor to serve, but this really was an emotional journey and I think K will agree with me.

I'll try to do better and update more soon and get back to my happy, sarcastic, fun loving self - both here, at work and at home. Sometimes you just go through stuff.

Kah

OMG !!! Thanks Kelley

I DID leave out the water for my bread recipe !!! LOL LOL LOL

1.5 cups ... you just put all the dry together, then the water, then cover and leave for 4 hours.

I can't even believe I did that!

HA! Anyway, it IS heaven!

Kah