Thursday, July 29, 2010


Sometimes it's great to have a blog so you can just VENT. Right now ... I am just so incredibly emotional ...

First of all, there's work. I am really in a place where I love my job and I'm confident. I know how to do it, I do it well. I look forward to doing it and for the most part I have a pretty good time. I'm well compensated and I like my coworkers. I was new to Houston of course when I was hired, and I met a couple of ladies I call some of my closest friends there ... but MAN sometimes it is HARD. Sometimes you have to try to take the emotion out of things. Sometimes you have to get past the attitudes. I really think the difference between men and women really show in the workplace. Men seem to be so calm and so ... logical about things in the workplace ... but women are NOT. You can get on the elevator and not see someone and be snubbed for weeks - because they think you ignore them. I am feeling incredibly frustrated right now because of how emotional people can be - and I have always prided myself on keeping things unemotional at work. I'm not a workplace crier - but goodness, lately I've wanted to sit in my car with a Whooper with cheese, a chocolate milkshake and hankerchief. This should pass soon!

 ............ and then in other news, just family trouble ... I shoulder so much worry and so much... sadness for the things other people go through. I've always been a sympathetic, empathetic person and I think to my own deteriment. I want to fix everything for everyone ... but most of the time people don't want to give that back to me. My family is going through something troubling and scary and sad right now - and I can't do a darn thing about it but sit back and watch. I've asked Conrad did he think I should get involved in x,y and z and he said just be here ... just be ready to take a phone call. The problem is, thinking about other people's troubles- I could just cry myself to sleep sometimes. I feel EVERYTHING - and I wish sometimes I could just be numb.

I think I could handle any one of the issues above with no problem, but when they occur at the same time, I just want to go to bed with a DVD, a good book and stay there for a few days. I walk around with tears just behind my eyes and a lump in my throat. What a way to try to get through the day, huh?

Well, prayers if you have a few extra minutes- mostly for my family situation, if you will. Pray that we all make it through it even though it only DIRECTLY effects one person - it seems like there is so much concern for her and sadness and ... we just all, well I just feel like it's happening to me too.

Have a good weekend y'all.



Jess said...

My fingers are crossed for your family situation to resolve itself soon.