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I'm sorry I've been neglecting my blog lately!

It seems these health issues just almost completely brought me to a stop. I had a few days of mild hysteria/panic attacks and it made anything but sitting on the phone with my dad, sobbing, impossible. If that isn't a public safety annoucement for parenthood, I don't know what is. Just because we grow up, does not mean we go away! Thanks Dad!

It appears I have a touch of Mitral Valve Prolapse, common in white women and thyroid patients. I happen to be both. YIPPEE. Doc Wilson put me on beta blockers and now I'm trying to adjust to them. At first, they make you VERY ... lethargic. I looked up this particular one, because I was exhibiting some odd side effects and it was as I had suspected - this particular medicine is given to people to make them calm down, such as PTS syndrome patients, newly back from war. It's sort of a ... anti-depressant of sorts. I shared with the good doctor about my complete mental breakdowns and the way I accosted my father with wailing and tears, every night. He looked taken aback at first and then shortly, I had my handy dandy prescription.

Today is day three, it's hardly had time to absorb, BUT the chest pains are mostly gone - a twinge here and there and the palps are barely detectable..... but I am also feeling sort of ... "what-ev's" ... I am in no hurry to do anything, at the risk of saying I just don't care about much ... lol ... I am just very very relaxed.

Good job Doc! Clearly he knew what meds to put me on. I did not have this feeling with the last beta blockers I was on. It's sort of that monotone, I don't care feeling without the wine. :) I daresay, Conrad is THRILLED. There is peace in the house once again.

Kah